Frustration and Boredom

I don’t even know how to put these into words much less words that someone else could possibly be interested enough to read but I’ll let that be your problem J My heart has burdened for weeks now over what my life is right now. I’m so sick of Christianity. I’m tired of being a Christian. No get me wrong, I love God, I hungry for Him and where He is taking me in my life. I’m devoted to His will in my life and there’s nothing more I want out of life. I’m weary of being attached to this superficial idea that Christ belongs in the little box, that He is crammed into our little churches. All these obligations and uneducated beliefs that just set the rules for all the model Christians to follow. For example, I was talking to Arliss the other day about traditions that have been formed because someone just made it that way. In communion, in some churches there is now a purple sheet placed over the ceremonial, taken off and folded almost like soldiers folding a flag at a funeral. It supposedly represents Christ clothes but in reality, back in the day, they put a sheet over it to keep the flies off. I’m glad to keep that tradition alive, the flies that invade our souls! People do something real! Don’t just follow behind in the line! There is nothing more ignorant in traditions when someone is doing something they don’t understand why they are doing, it sucks all the personal devotion right out of it. I understand these are the ramblings of a bored Christian that has lived in this bubble world too long and not everything should be as radical as I am making it out to be. I’m just saying, I want to see something real. I want to see God in His true form, something that doesn’t fit my idea of God, something that no one can explain. I want to see God work and I want to see Him work in me. So from the new radical in me, here’s my new little Christian checklist: Have quiet time with God because your soul is thirsty for His presence, Read his word because you want to see Him, love others because of the love He is loving you with, and Be lead by his spirit and not the expectations and obligations of what you have been told Christians are. Be real and you’ll see a real God.