Worth It All

Rita Springer: Worth it All
From the album “Effortless”

I don't understand Your ways
Oh but I will give You my song
Give You all of my praise
You hold on to all my pain
With it You are pulling me closer
And pulling me into Your ways

Now around every corner
And up every mountain
I'm not looking for crowns
Or the water from fountains
I'm desperate in seeking, frantic believing
That the sight of Your face
Is all that I need
I will say to You

It's gonna be worth it
It's gonna be worth it
It's gonna be worth it all
I believe this
It's gonna be worth it
It's gonna be worth it
It's gonna be worth it all
I believe this

This song has struck a chord with me that I can only play it over and over again. You know when a song comes along every once in awhile that just cuts to your core. You just squint your eyes and sing it from the bottom of diaphragm, and just feel your soul pour out. I feel like this just speaks to where I am at. A friend of mine has taught me to sing and praise not necessarily from believing the words but singing out of hope and prayer. If you can’t sing out of a reassuring confidence than sing as if you are asking God to be those words you are singing. I have no idea why things are happening or not happening but I will give him my song even in my doubts. With our pain He holds and reels us in, that is such an awesome thought. But having the words to put this emotion is just freeing, that I’m not looking for all the thrills and being blown away by a great beam of light that cast down as the seas part. I’m not looking for miracles, I’m desperately seeking and frantically believing that just the sight of His face, that’s all I need. That everything I encounter, fight through, endure that it will be worth it just from a glance from His eyes. That something that I have fought through for the last year, with my constant struggle with things that just aren’t ever going to go away, that it will one day be worth it. God, I continue to choose your words over my experience, my pain, and my better judgment, and year after year, I feel like I am stuck in the same spot over and over again, I am so far away from you. I want to believe that it is worth it, that you are going to be worth it, just one sight of your face.